A Space for What Is

Best-laid plans…time to let all that go.

I’m chuckling as I write this post. This past weekend was my birthday weekend. Today is my actual day of birth, but my family had planned a lovely weekend of festivities.

And yet…

Age is a funny thing. For me, it has been to temper my edges a bit. I find myself leaning into life, as it is, not bouncing off its sharp edges anymore.

I used to fight against the world, against my life, against the “as-is” of the moment.

But with age comes something rather profound—a learning to lean into the world as it is.

Of course, that doesn’t mean we don’t rally and march, shout with all our might at the injustices of the world.

No, it’s something more. More like, breathing into what is and then letting it go…

Life is in the letting.

Back to my weekend plans. Movies and a festival were put on hold as I held my child in the ER Friday night. All is well, now, and he is doing just fine!

And for that, I am grateful.

And I am grateful for the lesson this day, the day of my birth.

I am grateful for learning to let it all go…the plans, the movie, the festival.

Instead, I am embracing the messy, as-is of it all.

How lovely!

And how lucky I am to be able to comfort my child in his time of need. How lucky I am to be able to close my eyes when my body cries out for sleep. How lucky I am to have a partner who loves me just as I am. How lucky I am to have a mom, a brother, family and friends that love and support me, always.

I hope you too, dear reader, find the gentle edges of life; I hope, you too, learn that it’s in the letting go where you will find your own peace and acceptance.